Sunday, May 07, 2006

我长大了吗?

Was actually writing in Chinese when I was suddenly disconnected…
& so all my 辛辛苦苦 typed Chinese entry is gone…
Dun feel like typing them all over again…
So shall change to English version…

Have I grown up?

20th birthday is over ard 2 months ago…
My 1st year in university is also over…
Soon…I’ll be entering into my 2nd year in NTU…

So what have I done in this one year that just flew by?
What have I learned in this one year that just flew by?

Entering NTU…I made a lot of friends…
In SCI…
In Hall 13…
In Jap classes…
In church esp. NTU cg
Some of them are friends whom I love to be with…
Like yuanhong, camellia, aveline, liting and xuelin…
Like wenting, susan and yanyin…
Like God’s wonderful princesses – yuanzhen, wanyun, agnes…
And His wonderful princes – timo, alvin, louis…
But then…there are some whom seem to not know you after the term has ended…
They dun even smile at you when you walk pass them…
Can’t you smile back at me? It’ll only take a split second to smile…

Entering NTU…
I also acquire a lot of knowledge…
With regards to school work…research is a must…
Hence the need to know more and more…
It’s of course good…I really know more now…
But it’s not enough…
I’m still lost when ppl discuss stuff…
I need to know more…
Not only so that I know what’s going on in class…
But also to have more things to write in exams…
Learning Jap was a wise decision cos I enjoyed it…
Will cont if I get a good grade for level 1…

Entering NTU…
I live away from home…
I grew more independent…
Though there isn’t really much of a difference…
Cos I’m independent way before I entered NTU…
Freedom is never an issue to me…cos my parents dun care…
So the freedom that most ppl say hall provides dun really apply to me…

Besides the above…
In this one year…

I grew to be more interested in politics…
Maybe cos the election is this year…
But hey..i cant vote…not yet 21…
No progress package…
But I start to take interest…
About how the govt works n stuff associated to it…

I grew to want to know more details about God…
In the past…I just needed to know that God loves me…
That is enough already…
But this year…I wanna know what exactly happened…
Why did such a thing happen in the bible?
Why these phrases mean this or that?
Which translation will help me better understand the bible?
It’s not a something a child will ask I think...(thou there might be exceptions)

But then…

I realized that I want more n more love…
From my family…
From my friends…
From a certain someone(I duno who yet la…)

What is love?
Timo was sharing a little about it during cg…
He asked this: How do you know that God loves you?
For me…
I think I know He loves me cos He provides for me…
takes care of me…
have ppl ard me to encourage/bless me…
and most imptly…He gave His Son, Jesus, up for me…

“For God so LOVED the world, that He gave His only Begotten Son, that whosoever believe in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting life.”
- John 3:16
why is it ‘LOVED’ and not ‘LOVE’ ?
you mean He dun love us now?
No!!! take your time to think about it…
See that there’s a “THAT” behind?
It’s bcos Jesus had already died for us…
God LOVED us then so much that that He gave His Son for us…
But because Jesus had already died for us…
There is no more need for God to love us so much in the same way…
God now so LOVES the world…
But there’s no need for Jesus to die a 2nd time…
That’s why God used “LOVED” in the verse…
(if you dun understand…call me…cos I duno how to write it in simpler terms…)

Anyway…
There’s always ppl asking…
Do you wanna love marry a guy who loves you more…
Or you love him more…
Well...i’ll choose to love him more…
Guess it’s just me…as long as I can see the person I love…
It already feels great…
But honestly…
Word of advice…
Find a guy who loves God more…
That’s an even more secure marriage…

Ok…………………………………………………
Enough of my nonsense…
Shall go to sleep soon….
Came home at ard 130am after cg on fri…
Almost got scolded by papa n mummy…
But thank God they didn’t…hee…
Why was I so late?
Cos we all went out to chompchomp to eat after cg…
But no worries…
cos I got a shepherd n a fellow sheep who were commanded by wanyun to take care of me…so shepherd send me back home after letting the other sheep alight…
thanks shepherd….so sweet of you…cos think you will send me back even if wanyun nv command you to…haha…cos it’s 1AM!!! You wont let me take cab myself…

And now..it’s 3am le!
Haha…shall go sleep le…
Tmr got work again…

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beLoVeD jkMy out
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