Tuesday, May 16, 2006

GIVE THANKS

Give thanks with a grateful heart
Give thanks to the Holy one
Give thanks because He’s given
Jesus Christ, His Son

And now, let the weak say I am strong
Let the poor say I am rich
Because of what the Lord has done for us
Give thanks

献上我感恩的心
归给我圣洁的主
因神将祂子耶稣
赐给我们

如今,凡软弱者得刚强
凡贫穷者得富足
因主为我们撑住一切
感恩
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I remember that this was my fav song when I first came to know Christ..
Haven sing it for a very long time…
Was reminded of this simple yet meaningful song when Pastor Chin said on sat that
“in everything give thanks” (1 Thessalonians 5:18)

was feeling really sad n down on fri night cos of things at home and the tough day that I had at work…was just feeling so cold n lonely inside that I started crying...guess I would say of myself as one who will like to out up a brave front..even in front of my parents n sisters…so I was crying to myself on the sofa where I was sleeping…wanted to call counselor A and B (2 of the person I wrote in my book on sat when pastor chin ask us to write down who are the counselors in our lives) but din wanna disturb them cos I thot they were at Ubin..so will be very tired) n I came to the point where I really couldn’t take it that I msged someone to order me to stop crying and go to bed…but then..that didn’t work…
I knew the only one who can stop this crying was God..but I din wanna read the bible..
(cos I dun wanna switch on the lights..anyway cannot see properly when I’m crying…)
and I really dunno what to tell Daddy God except to switch off the tap in my eyes…
started to pray in tongues and thank you Holy Spirit for bringing a calm into me..and leading me to listen to song to get to sleep…dun even know when I stopped crying...just fell asleep cos I was too exhausted from crying I think…

anyway…thou I was feeling much better…my mind was still full of thots n stuff…I dun wanna think about them…but I just can’t help it…so I was asking God to speak to me…
and thou He din answer me directly…I got it from pastor chin’s n pastor prince’s messages on sat n sun….

on sat..pastor chin was sharing about decisions but what I caught wasn’t that…what rally spoke to me was the giving thanks part…dun you wonder how you can still give thanks to God at the peak of all your troubles? Well..pastor said that in everyday lives, in everything we do, we shld turn to the Lord..not only turn to Him during crisis..
the same thing applies to giving thanks..God said in 1 thess..”in everything give thanks”..so in everyday lives..we’ll give thanks to the Lord so often..that even in times of crisis..we’ll also give thanks to the Lord…

then on sun..pastor prince said something about wisdom…
something about the old may not be as wise as the young ones..wisdom have nothing to do with age…wisdom..only comes from God..
it struck me that you know..it’s the answer that I’ve always been searching…
as the youngest in the family..i always wonder why am I the only one who seems to be worrying..or the one who’s thinking about why did they take such actions?
Why in the world does my parents do the things they do? Can’t they think? Dun they know the consequences? Dun they care about how we feel? I know they love me..i’m one of their daughters..but if they love me..why are they doing what they’re doing? Ain’t their actions shouting “I AM STUPID!”? where’s the wisdom that they shld hv?
Besides my parents..my sisters too…sometimes..the things they do puzzled me too…why do they make such a decision when I can clearly see the bad results? Suggestions to them just fall around them…why? Wisdom? Where is it in their lives?
Then I realized that hey..wisdom is not about them…wisdom is about Jesus…
Jesus is wisdom personified…
He is my wisdom..Maybe that’s why I can see the things that they do not…

Ppl will always tell me..
“Jo, you’re very mature and sensible.”
Most of the time..i’ll reply that I had to be…
I have to be in the circumstances that I’m in…
But now I realized...it’s not me at all…
How in the world would I know that I have to study hard?
How in the world would I know that I dun wanna be like any ah lians on the street?
How in the world would I know this is the path God wants me to take?
It’s Wisdom in me.. aka…it’s Jesus in me..
It’s all God’s plan for me…

But then…Lord…why can’t ur wisdom get thru to them and make them see?
They all know You personally…but why aren’t they seeing You?
Holy Spirit…speak to them…There’s nothing I can go except to play sermons out loud for the whole family to hear despite scoldings…only You can speak to the spirit in their flesh…Lord…Do something…

I’ll do the one thing needful now…to give thanks:
THANK YOU DADDY GOD!

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