Monday, November 27, 2006

I AM GOING TO HM6!!! AND I'M BLESSED EVEN BEFORE I GO!!!

being in campus for ard 2.5 yrs..
this HM6 is actually my 1st HM cos e last camp was ben-gen camp..
& back then..i haven entered e NTU family...
so i was so looking forward to e camp..
way before HM6 was even officially announced..

but then..as HM6 registration opens...
i ask God where to get the $220...
by my own efforts...
i save n save....
and think of more ways to save up...
and then...
registration closed.

we were not able to get a room cos we din hv e cheque...
thou placed on e waiting list...
it was still a :( thing cos we were NOT confirm going...

sometimes i wonder do i doubt God...
but i decide to just believe that with whatever tiny as mustard seed faith i have..
to just "Amen" with dot n yz that we dun hv to worry...
God will bring us there...
i can only be amazed by dot's faith when she tell us that Jesus had already brought us there..
she said that she can see us screaming n having e time of our lives there in OUR ROOM!!!
for me..heh...i can only offer "amen".

but all we can do is wait.

as time passes...e camp comm ppl called yz..
she's in! i was so happy for her!
but what about me?
i still can only wait to get in...
my greatest concern was not e finances anymore...
but if i can go for camp...

as more time passes...they called dot..
she's in too! i was happy for her too..
but can i be real here? 50% of me was thinking..
"God..why is it not me?!"
hahah...then i thot to myself:
why tim ang placed my name last among e 3 of us in e waiting list..
why do i have to wait so long?
what if e cut off line was at dot? then me lei?
i can only tell God that i'll be so satisfied to just go for camp..

as more n more time passes...yingling finally called me!!
she called me on sat morning...
i was so so so so happy!!!
haha...just exclaimed out loud to lindsay, amber n weiyi who were with me at kbox...
even told them that nothing can make me sad that day...
haha..but that's quite wrong...
cos i realised e stupid devil then start to play in my mind again...
think that's why i was so sad n felt so lousy b4 united concert...
was really thinking why am i feeling sad when i shldn't be!
i'm gg for HM6 lei!!!! hahhaa....well..i also duno why i was so emotional yesterday...

but anyway...i was to pass yingling my idemity form n e cheque today...
so yesterday i asked lindsay to help me write e cheque n i'll pass her e money...
but u know what? i dun hv $220 in my bank...
so i sms my 2nd sis to transfer e $100 allowance she gives me by today...
all i was doing..was out of my own effort...

but God dun want that..
He brought me to camp..He'll pay for it..
b4 3rd svc today..yingling told me that someone had already paid for my camp fees..
i was SHOCKED!!!
hahah...think i was so stunned that yingling asked me "are you ok?"

God is truly so so so so so awesome!!!
all i asked was to get into camp...
but God ALWAYS answers exceedingly abundantly above all that i can ask or think...

i'm so so so so blessed!!!
hahah...i was so touched that i just cried.
haha..but this time..crying cos of over-happiness...
lindsay ask me "how does it feel to hv someone pay for ur fees?"
me "i duno..haha...just wow! wow! wow!"
it's something that i cannot describe...
i felt that i can just float cos i was so "high"
i can only say..
[WOW!!!!] to the power of infinity! :)

anyway...just wanna say that God is truly a good God..
He knows that i cannot..
no matter how much i work..
i can never pay all that i am supposed to..
if i pay all... i think i'll just have to live on drinking plain water..
but everytime i have a financial need...
God is there to meet it..
He may seem slow..but He's always...ALWAYS on time!

i'm so so so so so so so blessed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and you know what's e best thing?
i remembered that i told God that e very start b4 registration even opens..
that how nice if someone was to bless me with e camp fees..
i mean i'm sure everyone wants that...it's like every campers' desire..hahah...
and i only TOLD God..maybe just a 5 sec prayer..
so i was so amazed that God remembered...
and it all happened so suddenly!

There is a word that i want to deposit in you through God's word that you can hang onto for the rest of your life, and i hope you never forget it. it is the word "suddenly".
Sometimes when you have lived with something in your life a long, long time, you get to the point that you can limp along with it and go on about your business at the same time. But God heard those prayers that you prayed about the situation, and He remembers them. Then suddenly He move in your life and deliver you in a way that will just amaze you. i believe we need to expect God to move suddenly!
-- From Joyce Meyer's Expect a Move of God in Your Life...Suddenly!

i bought this book a few months back i think...and i was telling Daddy that i wanna experienced that "suddenly" thing..and WOW! He is truly amazing...my financial situation really turned around so suddenly! i felt so rich currently! hahaha....nv felt so rich before...
and not only in e natural..but also cos i know i am rich inside...

i can only love You from the inside out.

here..i just wanna say..
Thank You Daddy God.
You are truly amazing...
and You are the only one who can make me feel what i'm feeling now...

thank you to the one who blessed me..
i duno who you are..but i know you are blessed..
ever so richly..
cos only when you are blessed can you be a blessing..
and i'm sure that you are giving out of e abundance that you received from Daddy God.

to those who are trusting God for things..not just in finances...
i wanna encourage you all to just continue trusting..
wait on the Lord..
and dun wait with the "i'll just sit here and be passive" kinda attitude..
wait EXPECTANTLY!!!
to wait is to expect, to look for, to look for with a view to being shown favour.
God said in Psalms 30:5...
His favour is for LIFE!

:)

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