Friday, April 21, 2006

Finding Neverland

Was watching "Finding Neverland"..
haha..shows how much i studied for 106 huh.. :p
anyway..there was this part between the 2 leads
(johnny depp & kate winslet)
kate winslet was talking to johnny depp:

You pretended for some time now that
you are part of this family, haven’t we?
You’ve come to mean so much to us all that now...
it doesn’t matter if it’s true.
And even if it isn’t true, even if that can never be,
I need to go on pretending, until the end, with you.

thot it sounds really good..though it's sad..
haha..it just speaks to me..dun ask me why..it just did..
i duno..but it was the most memorable part of the show to me..
haha..i'm just unique..(weird in a nice way.. :p)
hmm...maybe because i love to pretend?
i'm a deep thinker..not that i have those cheem thoughts about stuff..
but thoughts about life..and what i'm doing..
about the people around me...
haha..Hui Lin told me last thurs:
Jo, i can see that you're a person who thinks a lot right?
well..ya! haha...am i that obvious?
anyway..sometimes i'll just stare into space wondering about stuffs..
especially about the people around me..
i'll start thinking what if this happen..or what if that happen..
what will i be doing?
what will you be doing?
hhaa...i duno what i'm talking about..
but ya..i love to think..
and maybe daydream.. :)

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CS103 - the paper sucks!
think it's going to be the worst paper that i can ever take..
hopefully those in the years after will be better..
but i'm going to trust God for a good grade in the paper
cos i've already covered it in His blood..
shan't talk abt it further cos it'll just make me more sad..

CS 105 - ok lor..
it was amazing how God will put ppl ard you to encourage you..
went into the exam hall feeling really down cos i couldn't remember the 1001 definitions for comm research..put down my stuff n went toilet 1st...
then when i reach back my seat..found out that Camellia is just sitting next to me!
it's something that've never happened!
having took so many modules together..it's the 1st time i see her in exam hall!
was really thinking: God, thank you..
i can't explain why...but it's really different to see God's anointed ppl..
cos they'll tell you things like "grace grace" instead of ppl who'll tell you "how ar? die la.."
felt really good about doing the paper there n then..
but the paper..haiz..it's very application based..
1st question..i really duon what i was writing..
the rest of it was ok..think my ideas are roughly there..
Thank you Lord that my answers will find favour in the marker's eyes!
anyway..my budget was $7050 i think..
anyone else hv similar answers for Q5?

Cs108 - ok paper...
haha..it's a relax paper cos it's only 30%..
but hey! i finished reading the textbook k?
(except the part on our health cos it's not coming out for the paper)
trusting God that i'll do well in it..
thou i forgot the actual definition of DRM..
and just wrote a rough gauge for him..hee..
but anyway..i was watching "Friends" with yuanzhen the day before..
who can take exams and still be relax as us?

honestly..God is just so wonderful to His saints..
having studied with the ntu cg ppl is really a wonderful experience..
there's always ppl ard to encourage you..
ppl reminding you of God's love for you..
ppl sharing God's word with you..
and God's presence is really there..
and when i look ard..it's really amazing how we can laugh
and have so much fun while other ppl are mugging so hard...
every breakfast/lunch/dinner that i eat with these people of God..
i'm very much refreshed and feels more awake..
and even if i'm interrupted when i'm studying..
(by agnes mostly..but it's ok dear...)
they are ppl who will share the word with me..
and their testimonies with me...
letting me know how awesome our Daddy God is!

here..i would really like to thank my wonderful brothers n sisters...
Louis..Yiwei..Alvin..Tim Ang..Timo...
Yuanzhen..Agnes..

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Saturday, April 15, 2006

Daddy God loves me so so so so so much!!

Jesus loves me this i know
For the bible tells me so
Little ones to Him belong
They are weak for He is strong

Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
For the bible tells me so

Daddy God is so so so so good..
everytime i felt lonely and unloved..
He'll remind me again that i'm very much loved by Him!

When i went home a few weeks ago..
i realised that papa's prob is back again..
that's really my weak spot that the stupid devil is pressing..
but Thank You Lord that that power is back in You hands..
the key is now in Your hands Lord.
i'm leaving the matter in Your hands..

anyway..ya..the prob was on my mind la..
and i felt family love seeping away from me..
although ber n meh is there for me..
it's just diff not to have love from our parents..
it's really something that ppl cannot say that they also feel..
cos they really can't..
dun tell me you can..cos u dun..
my family story can be filmed into a drama lor..
it's like a drama serial that u'll see on tv..
as dramatic n full of........haiz....

But...just like He did last year during ben-gen camp..
(see my entry in June 2005 abt ben-gen camp)
He did it again yesterday night during ntu praise & worship..
He reminded me again of His great love for me..
that unwavering love..
that perfect love that will cast out all fears..

During P&W, Coach Les told us to tell Daddy God for one thing that we really wish to have..
so i was thinking abt the stupid prob that the devil was giving me..
and how i want God to take it away..
then Coach Les told all the cgls to go ard praying for us..

i'm not gg to write what they said..
but one thing was very evident..
that God loves me..

1st person who came to me was my shepherd, timo..
he told me that God loves me.
2nd person who came was Coach Les..
he told me that God will give His love to me.
3rd person was HuiLin..
she told me that not only will i experience God's love..
it'll be so much that i can spread it around..

Daddy God really loves me..
so so so so so so so so much!!!

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Jap exam is over! haha...finally i dun hv to study jap le..haha..now tim ang n agens cannot say i keep studying jap le..haha..

anyway..God is truly faithful, esp during exams!!!

yesterday morn..i met mag to tally our answers for the past year papers..so as i was looking..realised that i had quite a number of wrong..i was actually quite discouraged..but then i dun hv time to study le..gg to go in for exam le..so i can't memorise the 1001 jap vocabs lor..(there's isn't 1001 but seems like la....) super sad le...

when i went in, i just suddenly remembered what timo told me the night before..that just cover our exams in Jesus' blood..it'll never fail lor..so i just laid hands on the exam paper..and said:
"Jesus, i'm covering this jap exam in Your blood. Your blood will never fail me. I know that this paper is already graded with a A in Your name. As i do this paper, it doesn't matter what i studied. all the thoughts in my mind now will be from You and only You alone. where i'm supposed to put in the "qing shen" words will be directed by You cos i dun remember. Thank you Lord. In Jesus' name, Amen."

and guess what?
i breeze thru the exam..only got like 5 to 6 questions that i duno how to answer..
(for your info, the paper is like chinese paper..got fill-in-the-blank, compre, compo..etc.)
so truly praise God!!!
and i actually finished the paper 30 mins b4 time was up..so amazing...haha..

God is truly a faithful God!!
Thank you Abba Father!!!

You Are So Faithful

Like the sun that rises everyday
You are so faithful
Lord You are faithful
Like the rain that You send
And every breath that I breathe
You are so faithful, Lord

Like a rose that comes alive every spring
O You are so faithful
Lord You are faithful
Like the life that You give
To every beat of my heart
You are so faithful, Lord

I see a cross and the price
You had to pay
I see the blood that washed my sins away

And in the midst of the storm
Through the wind and the waves
You'll still be faithful
You'll still be faithful
And when the stars refuse to shine
And time is no more
You'll still be faithful
You'll still be faithful, O Lord

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beLoVeD jkMy out
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Thursday, April 13, 2006

Mummy, mummy, why do.....

Understanding Chinese Cinemas is over and done with! yeah! Thank You Lord that i'm already graded with a satisfactory grade in Christ. It's final cos Your word through my mouth is true..
came back hall to get my jap stuff before heading for lunch then study session with yuanzhen they all..

while at lunch today..huilin was picturing her future..she likes to have lots of kids ard her..a big car so that not only can she look after her own kids..she can look after other ppl's kids too..and then..she came to the point where her kids will ask her some questions...so funny...

'mummy, mummy, why do Uncle Louis's kids always like to pose?'
'mummy, mummy, why do all the kids run away when they see Uncle Anil's kids?'
'mummy, mummy, why do Auntie Lindsay's kids always look so chao been?'

and as the jokes continued, "smart" tim ang contributed
'mummy, mummy, why do Auntie yuan zhen's kids keep falling down?'
so funny..yuan zhen fell when she went out to jog with me n agnes on tues morn..but it became the guys' entertainment topics..

lets continue..
'mummy, mummy, why do Uncle Alvin's kids always have so many girls talking to them?'
'mummy, mummy, why do Uncle Tim Ang's kids always like to clear plates?'
'mummy, mummy, why do Uncle Timo's kids always look so blur?'
'mummy, mummy, why do Uncle Yiwei's kids have such colourful hair?'
'mummy, mummy, why do Auntie Agnes's kids always go crazy at 11pm?'
'mummy, mummy, why do Auntie Agnes's kids come online after Uncle Yiwei's kids go offline?'

thats all for now...

all of them couldn't think of anything for me..i'm too nice for us to find faults with...haha..but my dear yuanzhen say she'll definitely find some faults with me soon..haha...

at first she suggested to me..

'mummy, mummy, why do Auntie Joanna's kids like to play basketball so much?'
but then i told her that that's a good thing ma..haha...

well..if you guys are reading this..there's this one "fault" with me...i'm super crappy..haha..you might not realised it now..but i really can be super crappy..hee...gotta continue studying for my jap tmr...bye...........

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beLoVeD jkMy out
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Monday, April 10, 2006

Haven been blogging for a while..have been a good girl studying hard..

Mon, 3 April -
finally presented 108 video..think it's nice..
cos i did most of the editing ma..hee..
studied with agnes, yuanzhen, alvin, tim ang, louis n yiwei..
from 8pm to 2am..

Tues, 4 April -
finally handed in 105 report 2..
and did not bad for the quiz.. :)
jap listening was ok..but the person really speak super fast..
like japan's bullet train! haha..
studied with the same ppl..
from 8pm to 330am..

Wed, 5 April -
went for my 1 & only lesson..103 tut..
only 9 ppl turned up includ. the presenter..
studied with mag at 4pm..
then with the same ppl as above at night..
then came back hall to study..
from 4pm till 4am..

Thurs, 6 April -
finally no lesson..slept well!
studied alone in hall..
then went for BS..
had a good time fellowshipping with the ntu girls..
from 1pm to 4pm..

Fri, 7 April -
ate breakfast with mum, then came back sch..
oral was ok thou i asked her to repeat her questions..
sumimasen, moichido onegaishimasu
studied with agnes, yuanzhen n alvin..
from 8pm to 1am..
went back hall & suddenly this fly appeared out of nowhere..
couldn't kill it & duno where it flew to..
so dun dare to slp..
in the end went to yuanzhen's room to slp..hee..

Sat, 8 April -
breakfast (bread w jam, mai pian) served by yuanzhen..
thks princess!!!
studied alone in hall..
from 11pm till 1230pm..
then went to meet agnes to go campus..
bought yogert fruz for val..
had a good time in campus..
signed up to serve in pastoral care department as ambassador..
Lord, pls let me be value added to this ministry & manifest Your goodness through me..
had a wonderful time fellowshipping during dinner too..

Sun, 9 April -
met yuanzhen n agnes for 2nd service..
so qiao karen also gg 2nd..
ate lunch with them then came back to sch..
gg to eat dinner with karen at 730..
then study with them..
annie coming in to study too..
yeah! more fellowshipping!!!

*studying with fellow brothers & sisters in Christ is truly wonderful..
*God's presence is so evident & manifesting among us..
*Love all of them!!! :)

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beLoVeD jkMy out
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