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# jOaNnA
# 24+ yrs old
# GoD's beLoVeD
# 22021986
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Saturday, May 22, 2010
wonders if anyone still reads this..
but anyway...
i won't say i'm feeling sad..
just wonder why i'm still single..
cos of my appearance?
i won't say i'm pretty..
but okay wat..
just a little on the plump side..
and it's cos i stopped training..
not because i eat a lot..
recently..
some friends got together..
weird thing is..
both are ppl i thot of not being just friends..
but then..i didn't know them that well either..
just thoughts...
so i guess i can't say much..
maybe cos i talk to girls more..
is there something wrong?
hmm..
God..teach me to see myself in a different light..
let me know that i can be loved too k? :)
beLoVeD jkMy out
@ |12:22 AM|
During the one week where i had a quiz and 4 assignments due, i would say that i was so stressed up. Yet i found the time to go for Arrow, serve, and also work. People around me just so willing offer me help and advice on my assignments.. :)
and last week, with more assignments on hand and projects to rush...i was able to take time to go for Befrienders' Night..and God's favour never fails to be over me...Thanks Bernice and Louis to drive me home that night! I was really really tired that night, and I was so happy to hear even the offer the drive home..THANK YOU!!!
more favour-surrounded incidents were to come...on friday, me and a friend had to rush down to suntec from school to film local band-EIC. but at boon lay, there were thousands of ppl at the taxi stand! (ok..i'm exaggerating) ...anyway..so we decided to "hijack" a cab further up front..we realised there were many others doing the same thing..my friend 1st rxn was to call for a cab...but i decided to pray. :)and miraculously, a cab skipped all others and stop for me!!! my friend was amazed..and i happily told her.."haha..favour of God!"
also, my laptop's monitor was faulty last tuesday, and so, i brought it to the computer shop in NTU..the thing about the computer shop fujitsu repair service, is that they take ages! my friend only got back her laptop after 3.5 weeks..yet! i got back mine this thurs! hahah...it only took 1 week for me!! hahah...truly favoured...and the most amazing thing is that the favour just overflows and overflows...
in the midst of the 3 weeks of rushing projects, i had to go for internship interviews..for one of the company, Nine-V Entertainment, i would say it was a smooth sailing interview..i liked the environment..and most imptly, i think i was the only one applying there so i will most probably get it...as for the other company, Peachblack, i was worried cos the other ppl gg for interviews were the "zai" ppl in my course! and also when i went for the 1st interview, the female boss was quite stern and as she looked at my showreel, she started giving advice on how to improve..wah! i felt disqualified...
and yet! i was the only one offered the 2nd interview...hahha...truly, favour surrounds me like a shield!
and now..i am put in the dilemma of which company to choose..haiz....haha..too much favour really...
beLoVeD jkMy out
@ |10:12 AM|
I got my bursary!! $800 MOE bursary!!
my school fees is settled!!
:):):):):):):)
whenever a new semester starts, i'll start worrying about the school fees..whether what i'm trying to earn is enough to cover the amount, whether my pay will come in time to pay for the school fees, whether there are other ways i can pay the amount..and obviously, it applied to this sem too..so for the past 7 weeks, i've been wondering if i can pay...
i had everything planned out months ago when last sem ended..that i'll work at RGBC and G+P so i'll have more money saved up..that i'll save the $200 that the govt gave to pay..but when sch started, i realised i never calculate in my transport fees and textbook fees..and i duno what's with year 3 books..they're all like $40+... :(
so..the money started depleting..how? i cannot work much cos there's so many projects..and even if i work a lot..can i cover the amount? Praise Daddy God that He gives angels charge over me...He sent me an angel in the form of Weiyi to tell me to apply for bursary! i was always hesitant to apply for bursary cos i thought there was an income requirement to apply..but when i search for info..the requirement was never seen..but who cares right? so under the encouragement of Weiyi, i applied...
i was super happy when i was scheduled for an interview for the bursary..but then..Oh, me of little faith..i told no one except Yuanzhen cos the timing for the interview clashed with the class i'm taking with her..
anyway..on the day of the interview, i was filming the whole morning, then tutorial, then without even time to eat, i went for the interview...there was nothing on my mind except shld i buy something 1st before running to class after the interview? hahah..the only thing i thought of was to pray for favour and i went in. The interview was scheduled to be 30mins, but it was less than 10 mins..and it was full of nonsense answers..hahha..why? cos i was so unconvinced by my own words..i was thinking..God, if i ever get this..it's really You..
i was very convinced that i will not get the bursary, but on thursday at BS, though pastor was talking a lot about the new building, but he was essentially talking about finances..and i know that i know God was working in my life again..(haha..not like He stopped la..but i felt that ma..)
when pastor prayed the closing prayer that Daddy God will bless us so that we can be blessings unto the new building project, i spoke out (not very loudly) that "Daddy God, that bursary is mine." and Daddy God is truly faithful..
today, when i check my ntu mail in the morning, there was only the E-Bill sent out telling me the amt i need to pay..so i was thinking, "haiz..i really didn't get..i need to find plans to solve the problem." so i sms Amber to tell her that i need to collect my last month's pay asap..
but after class today, while i was waiting for Xuelin to finalise our video, i checked my mail and i shouted out loud! hahha..so glad there was no one else in the room..
this was what i read:
"Dear KOO MEI YAN JOANNA
MOE Bursary AY07/08 - $800/-
We are pleased to inform that you have been awarded the above bursary for the academic year............."
!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Amazed! Amazed! Amazed!
i guess it's always in me to feel that i dun deserved to be blessed..
and that i dun deserved to be blessed like i had been..
there's truly no no else like me..
who can be a CEO at prelims and become AAB at actual A levels?
who can have C5 for GP and get into Communication Studies?
who can without applying, get to pay sch fees with her edusave money?
who can go to HM6 fully paid for?
who can now, having all 4 other family members working, yet get a bursary?
though i always doubt and have no faith, Jesus is my faith.
and He made me time and again His testimony of His goodness and His provision..
:)
beLoVeD jkMy out
@ |1:49 AM|
i've been worrying over my results..
but now i look back and find myself silly!
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CS203 - Newswriting and Reporting --- B+
CS221 - Broadcast Journalism --- B
CS291 - TV Practicum --- P
CS816 - Information Literacy --- S
AAH183 - Film and Propaganda --- A-
MB101 - Accounting --- B+
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Like always, Daddy God gave me results that i'm not worthy of...
modules that i struggled with..
modules that i totally slacked in..
hahah..yet they're those that got the best results..
:) i'm so happy to see these results...
cos i know then that i'm not guilty to be a testimony..
always..i wanna tell my frens that i dun worry cos i have a REAL God..
but often i hesitate cos i duno how to appear like a child of God when my results are atrocious..
but Daddy had provided me the good results...
i can proudly show them the work of my God!
that even though i spent lots of time serving God..
my work will be good..cos He is with me..
:)
Praise Jesus!!!
beLoVeD jkMy out
@ |9:20 PM|
and yet..it's not like i'm doing A LOT of things..
but i haven't been looking that matter until yesterday..
as i got out of my hse to travel all the way to NTU again..
this thought came to me..
"Jo, why are you going everyday so unhappy and tired?"
then it hit me that this is not the way to go about my life..
i shld be reigning in this life..
And so..for the 1st time in a long while..
i happily went to sch to get camera for shooting..
and what a way Daddy lavished on me..
He poured down the rain..so the weather was cool when i started filming..
(though it's very warm in the greenhouse [i was filming there] )
and the nice person in charge of the greenhouse gave us a tour..
though i wasn't very intrigue by the horticulture & aeroponic system...
I'm super amazed by the butterflies that were behind the greenhouse!!
it was not a very big place where the butterflies were..
but there's quite a number flying about..
and they're pretty!!! :):):)
so nice to see Daddy's beautiful creations..
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Everyday that i wake..Lord, teach me to thank You first..
Everything that i do..Lord, teach me to trust in You..
Every lesson that i go..Lord, teach me to understand easily..
Everything that i see..Lord, teach me to see their beauty..
Every person that i meet..Lord, teach me to treat them like You will..
Every breathe that i take..Lord, teach me to know it's given by You.
beLoVeD jkMy out
@ |12:17 AM|
As i walk along the roads..
I see the birds, the trees and the flowers..
I see the cars that drove pass..
I see the roads that i passed by..
As i listen to music while i walked..
I got reminded of You..
As i take the MRT..
I see the people walking in and out..
I see the mother playing with her child..
I see the child exclaimed at the mandane MRT ride..
As i read my books while i smiled..
I got reminded of You..
As i take my favourite bus rides..
I see the rainbow in the sky..
I see the old lady waving to her friend and moved over..
I see the familiar buildings i go pass..
As i read the SMSes ppl sent me..
I got reminded of You..
As i sit canteen A or in school...
I see the undergrads rush here and there..
I see the usual tables and chairs..
I see the life that people are living..
As i eat lunch with the cg..
I got reminded of You..
As i sit in service..
I see my cousin singing on stage..
I see my leaders serving communion..
I see my pastors enjoying themselves as they preached..
As i read the lines in my bible...
I got reminded of You..
Everywhere that i go..
Everything that i see..
Every sound that i hear..
Every smell that i touch..
They all remind me of You..
They are all traces of You..
beLoVeD jkMy out
@ |12:54 AM|
like always..i started saying all the cliche words to my grandma n parents..
and my grandma n dad said the same back...
but my mum changed!
instead of normal 学业进步 & 身体健康 phrases..
my mum prayed for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AMEN! AMEN! AMEN!
i was so amazed...
Thank You Daddy God..
that she knew to put you 1st..
even when i've forgotten...
and remind me that all these i have..
is cos of You! :)
beLoVeD jkMy out
@ |10:35 PM|
my grandma lives with me..so my dad's brother n sister n their family come to my hse..
in the afternoon..i finally have time to pack the room i share with my 2 sisters..
lol..my eldest sis haven pack in a year..so there's so many things to throw away..
then the time comes for reunion dinner..
i had the priviledge to say grace for the whole family..
and thou i said really simple things cos it's been very long since i said grace in chinese..
but God answers exceedingly abundantly above all that i can ask or think..
besides praying for the sanctification of our delicious dinner..
i prayed that we'll have a joyous and wonderful time..
and we really did.
throughout dinner..no major arguement came forth..
neither did small arguments..
there were a few opposing views..but nothing fatal...
and after dinner...the most HAPPENING thing...
hahah..we decided to go catch a movie..
(we went to watch "Just Follow Law" --> good show..fann wong's acting improved! )
Woohoo! family movie outing!!
hahah..there's 10 of us gg..excluding my grandma who does not want to go..
it's such an unbelievable thing!
i think my dad and his siblings have never catch a movie together in their entire lives..
and with the things that had happened in my family..(i pray they never happen again..)
this is truly Daddy God's work.
None of me..
All of HIM!
He really knew what i hope to see..
i love my 21st birthday present already..
HARMONY AT HOME..
from the very 1st KBOX outing with my immediate family..
to this 1st movie outing with my closer family members..
WOW!
thank You Daddy God..
i believe that there will only be more n more "goodest" days to come.. :)
beLoVeD jkMy out
@ |12:58 AM|